Feeling my Feelings

I'm frustrated today, Ms J. Impatient. And my bad leg's hurting. I'm getting pretty tired of this rainy weather, too. As I drove home from work this morning, I thought what the hell? Why not just feel my feelings? Experience whatever's there and get over it. So pardon me if I sound a bit owly today. I'll try to blog it away.

I miss job 10. Neil is still there so I don't want to return, although I may have to at some point. You don't suppose the miserable twit would stay on my train just to spite me, do you? I think it's entirely possible. He's such a ... prick!

Our play is really getting on my nerves. I don't remember ever feeling this way about a play before but honestly, Ms J, I can't wait til it closes. We meet four times a week and waste masses of time discussing trivial rubbish. We've been meeting twice weekly since February. If I had known this would be such a trial, I would not have involved myself. On Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays, I rush directly from work to the rehearsal space and there I stay until way past my bedtime. Sundays are rehearsal days as well now. I feel as though I haven't time for anything anymore. A couple of these weekend rehearsals are slated to last all day. We open in three weeks and we've only just now begun to rehearse. And the script has still not been finalised. We have no set, no sound or lighting people, no costumes. However, advertising and marketing seem to have been quite important. I'm an actor, Ms J. I just want to act. I'm not interested in selling ad space or marketing the play. I don't know how to build a set or design costumes. I know these things are important, but I want to get on stage and act.

My theatre friends up in Caledon have announced their production line-up for this coming season. The first play is "Tribute". It sounds terrific and I plan to audition in late July. It'll be so nice to start the process with a script in my hand. I hope I get the part.

The rain continues here in Mimico. It has rained nearly every day this week, and Environment Canada predicts rain for the holiday weekend (Victoria Day) and for much of next week. I'm anxious to begin work on my deck, Ms Journal, but it may be more prudent to build an ark instead. It's cold, too. 12C

I think I'll build a fire in the fireplace. That ought to chase away the chill and invite some cheer. Which I sorely need.

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